Just when things are looking up

Things fall apart: the title of a book I had to read in high school as well as the summary of my day. I don’t need to use this blog to whine. Let me just tell you that my car is finito. Yes, that’s right- no more car. I am now at the mercy of my friends, my parents, and the city bus. It stinks, but oh well. I will live.

God is still taking care of me. I know this because last night I made an unwise decision, but God protected me from myself. He did not allow things to progress, and He gave me the sense not to pursue them too hard. I am so relieved and thankful. Even when I decide to put myself in dangerous situations, my Father protects me. He loves me more than I can comprehend.

Today is a day for new beginnings

I seriously contemplated entitling this blog “Tomorrow is a day for new beginnings,” but I realized the absurdity of this. It is exactly what I have been doing my entire life- having good intentions for tomorrow. So, even though it is 10:54 PM, I will start now. Today is the day I will start over. I will do the things I know I need to do. I will look forward to making progress in the longterm, while still moving forward every moment. I know that God can use me in big ways, and I have run from that for the longest time. I thought it was too much responsibility, so I ran in the opposite direction. I jumped into bed with some of the dirtiest guys I know, hoping to come out freer and more fulfilled. Well, guess what- it didn’t work! I want to make a fresh start! And I don’t want to wait until I find the right church or until I stop desiring sex or even until I have some super-emotional encounter with God. I can find all the reasons in the world to wait, but it won’t do me any good. So, why not start now?

At 11:02 PM on January 29, 2007 Beth Mooring decided to discontinue her old life and begin to live the one God had planned for her all along.